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Redhot1711
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Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Denton
Gender: Female
Interests: running, soccer, hot air ballooning, photography, reading, sewing, croceting, cutting and pasting(very theraputic), piano, singing, tubing, sking....in no particular order
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
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AIM:  singingurl925
Member Since:
12/11/2004
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This is my fall 2007 color study.
Summer is over and now the trees are changing. Everywhere I go I see dark grey and yellow. It is a lovely color combo I've decided. There is also a common bush around that has the deepest red purple leaves that are gorgeous! Ok, enough color talk...
These are little ponys all over town that are tied to the side walk. They make me giggle.
Today my group at work had a meeting with the owner of the company and I feel very pumped up about making good collaborative design. Woot!
I read this quote somewhere about how you don't find yourself, you create yourself. I believe that is an appropriate statement for me in this time of my life. I'm getting to decide everything about how I want to be as a human being.
Holy crap i have so much to learn. The more i learn the more I realize how much more i need to learn. There is so much about people and the world and why things happen and why people behave certain ways. I'm begining to see connections and patterns in the world around me.
I'm getting more used to living alone. I'm tring to take advantage of where I am in my life and just enjoy what I have. The people here are really nice. They will generally talk to you if you talk to them. And its not creepy or anything. This lady blew bubbles at me so i could pop them while we waited for the street car. I keep seeing the same people on the street car.
I hate doing dishes so much! I need to marry someone who doesn't mind cleaning the kitchen.
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| Wow. So alot has happened since I last blogged and I feel as if their is too much to say in one setting, but i'm going to try.
My life is really different. I have free time for once, haleluja! Right? I have no idea what to do with myself now. I'm used to be so busy that I hardly have time to breath, and now its not like that.
This where I live.
I live in a studio apt. in a wonderful neighborhood near downtown called The Pearl. The community is awesome and I'm starting to recognize the same people over and over. I can pretty much walk everywhere I need to go. There is a street car line that runs right in front of my house and then takes me straight to work. So that is very convienet. My street has tons of resturants and lots of cool little shops. There are so many places that I want to go try out, but I don't have anyone to go with. It depresses me. One has to be brave to eat alone in resturants. You get pity looks from people, and yeah... Today I went to a local coffee shop to read my book. I was sitting by locals playing speed chess and they were talking shit the whole time. Haha It was way more entertaing than my book so I just watched them for a bit. It seems like at times like this that I still feel like a voyer looking onto a vibrant community. I'm tring to figure out how i fit into everything. I'm having to start from scrach with making friends, which is for sure the hardest part about moving. I don't feel like any one really knows me here. I have made a few friends which I love dearly and am quickly growing closer to. But I miss very much all of my friends from Texas. I reall do. And I think about you often.
I get lonely here on a regular basis. I'm learning things about myself. I need to be around people to be happy. I get depressed when I'm alone in my apartment. I guess one good thing is I have lots of time to think about stuff. I'm at a point where I'm tring to figure out what the heck I believe in and why. I'm finding that secular ideologies and my religious ideologies clash quite a bit and I'm tring to figure out how sort through that. I've been going to a small church downtown that's mission is to help the poor. I like the church, but I don't really feel like I fit in yet. I can tell that the congregation is genuion, they are not fakers.
I dance often. It's one of my favorite things to do. I've found the cool spots for swing dancing. And recently I found a sweet little venue for blues dancing. Blues has opened me up to an entire new genre that is really HOT. Enough said.
I met a guy on the street car and today we went to Souvie island today where you can pick fresh produce and flowers. He was nice to hang out with. My heart is still very broken from my last relationship, so I'm being very careful with the whole boy situation. I still think about Ryan alot and I want to be over him, but I'm just not.
I feel the need to get rid of things. I want my life to be more simple and less wasteful. I don't want to buy crap just to buy it. I feel like thats a stupid American idea that I don't really care for any more. I heard some statstic that says if everyone in the world lived to America's standards than we would need 30 earths. Haha that makes me reevaulate my lifestyle.
Oh yeah my job! Ziba is great so far. I've been working on quite a variety of projects. This past week I've been designing patterns for toliet paper. I never knew so much thought went into toliet paper, but I'm learning more and more. I found myself disecting a feminine pad tring to understand how the technology works. Haha my place does alot of work for fem. pads so its no big deal to be caring around a pad and wave them around. Nobody seems to even be phased by it. So it seems like within my group at work there are some amazing people that have been super friendly and then there are some that are there to do their job and could care less about talking to you. Which I guess is fine. My place has over 100 employees so I hardly know 1/4 of them yet. I play on a indoor soccer team with co workers so i've been meeting some people through that.
I wander quite a bit. There are so many areas of Portland to explore and discover. Everytime I drive around, I ususally end up getting lost and driving around for a while. It is nice, and sort of annoying at the same time. I'm still tring to find all the cool places. I know there is alot of uncharted territory...
Holy crap, I feel so honored to be living in such a beautiful area. I think the pictures speak for themselves.
this place is 30 minutes away from my house
Yesterday I went out of the city for the first time since moving here. I visited Multanomah falls. Truely a beautiful place, but it is over populated by tourists. I ended up taking a smaller trail that not many people were on to kind of be by myself and clear my mind. The plants are so different. The dirt is different. It smells different. The squirls are different. It was like I was walking through some exotic jungle. It was breath-taking, but I think I miss the familiarity of native Texan plants.
I feel like i'm rambling on and on. I'm proud of you if you've read this far. I have to go now. | | |
| Yesterday was very strange for me. We had one last party at our house last night and as people were leaving, I got this weird feeling in my stomache becuase there is a good chance I will never see them again in my life. It is really hard saying goodbye to so many people. I said goodbye to Ryan before I went to D.C. and then I got to see him one last time at the party. And then I had to say goodbye again. It hurts.
It is so strange to think in less than a week I will be living in Portland, OR. My life feels surreal right now. | | |
| So quick update!
I graduated and traveled to Europe for almost 3 weeks. It was amazing and now I want to go back for a much long er time. Me and Ryan stayed in Amsterdam for about 10 days. Its a great city and the Dutch people are really friendly and they all speak english which is a plus. They are much more active than Americans. Everyone rides bikes or walks to get around which is really refreshing to see.
Then we went to Ireland and toured the souther coast. Ireland is really beautiful in general. Everywhere you look is so green and beautiful. I went to the pub almost everynight and hung out with the Irish. They are so nice and welcoming but as soon as we mentioned we were from texas they had something to say about Bush. I don't blame them.
Now I am traveling to Chicago, Minneapolis, San Fransisco, and Portland. So far i've been to Chicago and now I'm in Minneapolis. I interviewed at 5 places in Chicago and they all went really well. The tricky part is finding people that are actually hiring. The city is really nice for the most part. Very big! I was late a few times to interviews because it just takes awhile to get around. I randomly walked past the oprah winfrey studio. Haha. Friday night I tried to go swing dancing. I got off the train and thought it wasn't too far away but i soon realized I was at least a mile away and I was the only white person for miles. To make a long story short, I got a ride from a cop to the swing dance joint and eneded up being locked(the dances ended in may) so I found a bus home. While I was at the bus stop I found this really creepy note on the bench about the world endeding and hell and stuff written in that scarey kind of handwriting. I was very relieved when the bus finally arrived. I still was the only white person on the bus. There was one other asian dude. The hostel I stayed at was huge. It took up a whole city block. Oh yeah, 3 of the nights i stayed with Ryan's aunt in the suburbs. They are really nice but kinda live a crazy life style. Ryan's Great grandma and great aunt were also staying there so I got to hang out with them. Haha they are very likeable.
So now i'm in Minneapolis. It seems like a really nice place at least in the summer time. I went to an Arts Festival on the Mississippi river earlier today that was really fun. I've been cruiseing the city and it seems like there are alot of really cool areas. All of the design places are in the warehouse district within a few blocks of eachother so I think it will be really easy to get around. I went to the Mall of America yesterday. It is huge! and has roller coasters, but its' not that amazing. Just a bunch of stores and tourists.
So there is a delima with Ryan. He got an internship in Amsterdam for six months and I'm going to be working in the states so i don't know what will happen. He is my bestfriend and I don't want to get rid of him so I don't know. There is no easy solution. :(
Anyways, i'm going to check out up town now and possibly get a drink. ttyl
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| Tomorrow is the last day of school for me. I've been going to school for at least 16 years and tomorrow will be the end of that. I can't really wrap my head around that yet. I have 2 history tests tomorrow that have been worrying me for awhile now. And what do we do when we are stressed--we go to sonic and buy comfort food. I can't wait to be in Europe!! | | |
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